Her swan floated in the air, dancing slowly as it faded. And as it finally disappeared, she tried again, trying to gather the happy memories she had with him. But as she whispered, “Expecto Patronum” nothing happened.
She finally placed her wand down on the bathroom floor. The bathroom had been her hideout for the past few days. It was where she could be alone. It was where she didn’t have to face everyone and their attempts to make her feel better.
As she stared at an empty wall, imagination was magic itself. On the plain brown wall, she imagined how it would be like to still have him around. She could see his smile, and how he naughtily narrowed his eyebrows at her. She could feel his touch as he kissed the top of her hand. She could hear his voice as he whispered sweet things into her ears. These were all memories, memories that made the tears fall once again.
She missed him so much. She missed talking to him, and telling him how the day’s classes had been. She missed practicing Quidditch with him, and how he would always let her win even though he constantly denied doing so. She wished he was here right now, holding her hand and telling her that everything that had happened was just a horrible nightmare. If only he could tell her he was never leaving her.
Gripping on to the raven pendant he had given her on her birthday, she recalled the day he sneaked her out of her common room to the astrology tower.
“Where are we going?” she asked softly as they ran down the empty hallway after hours.
“You’ll see.” He smiled.
“We’re breaking the rules! And you’re a prefect, if we get caught-“
“I’ll make sure we WONT get caught.” He playfully grinned as he led her up a flight of steps.
At the top of the astrology tower, he had already magically conjured pillows, blankets, and everything she considered soft, in shades of light blue, her favorite color. As he slumped into them laughing, he patted for her to take a seat next to him.
“Is this allowed?” she asked worriedly.
“I don’t think so, but i don’t really care, do you?” He gave another boyish grin.
After a few seconds of hesitation, she finally took a seat next to him. And a few minutes later, she could hear the school clock chime loudly. She had almost forgotten what the day was until he reminded her.
“Happy birthday beautiful,” he said as he pulled out a small box.
“You remembered?” She was rather surprised. They hadn’t been dating for long, but that moment felt as though they had been.
“I always did,'” he said while he slowly opened the box and took out a raven pendant.
Gently placing it on her palm he swished his wand, and silver chain hooked itself onto it.
“Do you want me to put it on for you?”
Still staring at the pendant, she smiled and nodded.
And just as he did, she turned and wrapped her arms around him.
“Thank you,” she whispered into his ear.
“Anything for your beautiful eyes,”
“Just my eyes?” She pulled away, playfully pretending to be offended.
“The eyes are the windows into the soul, no?”
She shook her head as she blushed. He was a smart one.
That night with him was a memory she would never forget. It felt just like last night, but she knew she was here alone last night, and the night before. Because he was gone.
Never again will he cheekily wink at her in the great hall. Never again will she see a future with him. All she had was memories of what they had, and dreams of what they could have. It wasn’t just his absence that made things so hard, it was the fact that kept ringing in her heart that he was dead.
More tears fell as her heart broke further. She couldn’t be fixed. She was like a bird with broken wings. He was the one that helped her fly. He inspired her to be the best. He had never given up on her. Without him, how could she brave the skies?
“Please come back,” she sobbed.
Pease help me fly again Ced, Cho thought as she pulled her knees to her body and wept.