Josh sat staring at the snow globe. The one he loved so much as a child. It was now broken because he was not holding it tight enough and it slipped from his hand. Josh hated himself for breaking it because it held so much memories… memories that were slowly slipping away as the carpeted floor sucked up the liquid from the shattered globe.
As Josh continued staring, he began grasping on to all the memories it carried. This was the last time he would relive them, before they were all gone… before he was gone.
The latest memory he had was 15 years ago, when he was not old and sickly as he was then. His children had visited him during Christmas and they just wanted to have a good time. It was then that his youngest son told him he was contemplating on leaving medical school, and Josh did not like the idea. “What a waste of time and money,” he scolded. His boy was almost done and he could do something with his life if he was a doctor, why was he thinking of quitting? His son told him over and over again that he wanted to be a musician, but he just scoffed. He remembered retreating to his room that night, angry and unsatisfied. His snow globe was placed by the night stand on top of a book he barely read, titled ‘Out Live Your Life’.
The next memory that came to him was when his wife died. She was very supportive ever since the day he met her. She was always telling him to go for his dreams and that he was never too old for it. Even on her death bed, she told him she still believed in him and that he could still do something with his life. “Forget the little store in town and go volunteer where help is needed,” she said. But he remembered replying, “I’m not young anymore.” She didn’t like his answer, but she still smiled at him. Josh wished she was still around because she died too young. On the day she left, she requested to see the snow globe and Josh brought it to her. She held it to her chest and made a silent prayer. He couldn’t hear what she was saying, and the only thing he heard that day was the flat tone from the heartbeat monitor.
The memory that flowed in after was when he was at the peak of his career. Josh was working hard in a company that met all his needs. He was earning a lot and he spent thousands on his house, his car and his family. One afternoon, while he was walking down a busy street, he saw an ambulance rushing to the nearby hospital. Josh briefly thought of donating some money or paying a friendly visit. He was rather well to do and his childhood dream was a good motivation then. But when he finally wanted to act on it, he did not have the time. He remembered giving up that ‘spur of the moment’ desire as he planned his next meeting with a client. His snow globe was on his office desk that night, waiting to be shaken.
That memory soon led to when he graduated from high school. He was smart, but not smart enough. He applied to all the medical schools he could find, but unfortunately, everyone turned him down. He then reevaluated his future and wondered if he should just take the easy route, where one university’s scholarship was already waiting for him, or continue trying to enter medical school. Josh was still determined to reach his dreams but when he graduated from business school, he decided to work for a while before pursuing medicine. That ‘a while’ never ended. When he finally remembered his dream, he wondered if it was even worth it. The snow globe was in his bedroom then, and every time Josh looked at it he wondered. He never acted, he just wondered.
The globe finally pulled him back to his earliest memory. It reminded him of the first time his dad took him on a little trip. His mother was diagnosed with cancer when he was 7, and his dad did not want to see him cry any longer. Josh remembered how scared he was, always staring at his mother’s breathing chest afraid it might stop moving. Sitting next to his mother as she laid eyes shut on the hospital bed was the worst memory he had, and his father put a stop to it by taking him to a fun fair. Josh didn’t want to go as he wanted to stay with his mother, but his father forced him.
Josh remembered hating his father for forcing him. But at the fun fair, he forgotten everything. It was only for a couple of hours that he was a cheerful and happy child, but it was all he needed. His father bought him a snow globe of a little house to remind him that they will always be a family. Josh remembered being so excited to show his mother the snow globe, but on the following day, his father quietly sat down with him and told him that his mother was gone. Josh cried so much he felt himself choking and barely able to breath. His father had to rush him to the hospital and it was there that Josh told himself he would one day make a difference in the world, so that no other child would have to suffer like he did.
Josh remembered that day the clearest. He was holding the snow globe in his hand when he said, “Daddy, I want to be a doctor.”
This story was just me wanting to remind everyone that our dreams are important. No matter what stage you are in life, you should never give up on your dreams.
Each of our dreams have a reason and those reasons could change the world. So even if life tries to rob it from you, don’t let it. You might end up with regret for not chasing your dreams at the end of your lifetime.
Keep dreaming people! And as always, let me know what you think of this story in the comments below!
© 2013 Jeyna Grace
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