22 May

espionageThere I was, arm stretched out with a loaded pistol in my hand. My eyes were on target and I simply had to pull the trigger to end it all. But at that very moment, I waited.

“Why are you doing this?” he asked. No, he demanded.

I remained silent to his angry question, not because I did not know what to say but because I was not sure if my answer was acceptable.

“Are you going to shoot me now? Your childhood friend?!” he demanded. His words were fuelled with a concoction of pain and hatred put together by my betrayal.

“Answer me dammit! Have you grown mute?”

As I stared him straight in the eye, with the coldest expression on my face, I saw him break. His eyes were watering and the hand he held his pistol with began to shake. He was not doing this to himself, I was.

Since the day I said ‘yes’ to the other side, I cut off all ties to the life I had. My friends were no longer my friends, my family was no longer my family, and the organization I worked for was now the one I betrayed. No, I was not forced. It might seem so but there was no gun pointing at my head when I joined the other side. I made the decision and I’ve stuck with it for years.

When he asked me why I decided to switch sides and turn on everyone I once loved, I wanted to tell him it was because it felt right. There was money, protection, and a whole lot of other promises, but the only reason why I flipped was because it felt right. I felt as though it was the normal choice to make, and somehow they managed to convince me that I was fighting for the wrong cause all along.

“Was it worth it?” he asked, this time in exasperation. He seemed tired and he dropped his hand to his side.

I don’t know, I silently said.

“Seeing you right now, it’s like you have been brainwashed. Are you just going to do what they tell you to do? You have a choice, man. You can stop it all and come back with me. Please just come back with me,” he pleaded, as his body language indicated he was letting his guard down.

He was easing up, but I was far from it. Even though my arm was growing tired, I still held it straight. One shot was all I needed to end the night. I had a disc in my other hand full of information I needed to take down my former employer, and I just wanted to get it over with.

“I have a choice,” I said.

“Yes, you do!” he quickly replied, thinking he had successfully convinced me.

 “I choose this,” I said.

“What?” he asked, unable to believe his ears.

“You heard me,” I simply replied.

He laughed. It was a laugh of disbelief; short, strained and false. The kind of laugh that marked the end of a long and faithful friendship. As though the world could sense it too, the night sky acknowledged our broken ties and grumbled softly.

When his laugh faded, there was a brief moment of silence between us, but I waited. I gave him time to come to terms with my betrayal. That was the least I could do for him, in fact the last thing I could ever do for him. When he finally accepted that I was a lost cause, he shook his head, wiped his eyes and then lifted his pistol again. His arm was firm and his eyes locked on mine. At that very moment, we were a mirror image of each another.

“This is it then. You’re going to kill me,” he said. Anger, pain, and disbelief had left his voice.

“I don’t have to if you get out of my way,” I replied. I didn’t want to kill him, but if he insisted on making things hard I would not hesitate to shoot.

“I’m not moving. You have to shoot me,” he boldly stated.

Fine, I said to myself. A millisecond after that, a bullet shot out of my pistol and whizzed through the cold night air. He did not see it coming and his reflexes could not dodge the bullet that went straight for his head. Before the clock could tick another second, the bullet hit its target and sent it shattering into pieces.

It was a loud shatter as the mirror crashed to the ground. The tiny motel floor was now scattered with glass shards. As I remained seated, I stared at where the standing mirror once stood. I silently told myself he was gone, and that side of me was never going to stand in my way again.

Knowing that the gunshot would send people to my room, I pushed him out of my head and quickly got to my feet, tucking my pistol into its holster as I did. Without wasting anymore time, I grabbed my belongings and the disc before climbing out the back window.

Now all I needed to do was make a call and drop the coveted information off. I made my decision that night, I was not forced into it… it was my choice.


There will be a time in our lives where we choose a side; the side that seems right and the side that reflects our hearts. And when that time comes, will we go for the side that tells us what to do and what we should believe in, or will we stay true to the person we grew up with?

Often times, we find it hard to go against the grain and be ourselves, so we choose to act and behave a certain way just to fit in with the majority. But every time we do that, we betray ourselves. We are taking what we know about ourselves and handing it over to the world, where the world can use it to judge and conform us. Yes, it might seem right and the most common choice, but is loosing yourself in the process really worth it? No one is forcing you in this decision, so choose wisely.

Anyway, I hope you guys liked this story 🙂 Do let me know what you think of it in the comments below!

© 2014 Jeyna Grace

(For more short stories, click HERE)


Posted by on May 22, 2014 in Original Works


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24 responses to “Espionage

  1. bloggingwhileundertheinfluence

    May 22, 2014 at 9:10 pm

    Wow. You’re a brilliant writer!
    I came by just to say thanks for checking out my blog but then I got sucked in and ended up stalking your site for an hour. Wow… just wow. Congrats on being awesome!
    Anyways, thanks for reading my post… and giving me one more person to obsess over (you).

    • Jeyna Grace

      May 23, 2014 at 9:15 am

      *Blushes* Happy you think so!

      I’m glad you decided to stop by 🙂 You don’t have to thank me, I should thank you. So thank you so much for being awesome yourself!

  2. Jodi

    May 22, 2014 at 10:01 pm

    This is really well-written and very true. We all need to be reminded of this. 🙂

    • Jeyna Grace

      May 23, 2014 at 9:13 am

      Thank you! Indeed 🙂 A reminder to myself as well.

  3. Jenn Medios

    May 23, 2014 at 6:34 am


  4. cszeimet

    May 23, 2014 at 8:58 am

    I’ve had a little time to read some of the stuff here.

    It’s very good!

    I’ve started noticing though, like me – you use a lot of adverbs. Hell, everybody on WordPress who writes stories uses a lot of adverbs. I think I’m going to start a crusade against adverbial modifiers. Mwhaha. We need to DILIGENTLY annihilate them. We need to FIERCELY seek them out, and GRUESOMELY murder them.

    Hunt them.

    Shoot them.

    Chop them up and feed them to the nouns in a adverb stew!

    Back to what I was saying about your writing now…. I really enjoyed reading what I have so far. 😛 Good job and keep up the good work.

    • Jeyna Grace

      May 23, 2014 at 9:12 am

      Hahaha! I think writers do it all the time with fiction. It’s necessary after all, especially with short stories. Hey, all the best with that cause! Haha!

      Thank you so much, and thanks for reading 🙂 Really glad you enjoyed so far.

  5. Cass Collins Photography

    May 23, 2014 at 12:05 pm

    Hi Jeyna…I thought I’d check out yours since you checked out mine. Wow! I really enjoyed reading this story. You’re a great writer and I can’t wait to read more! 🙂

    • Jeyna Grace

      May 23, 2014 at 12:48 pm

      Thank you and thank you for dropping by! I hope I can continue to impress you 😀

  6. mustardcookies

    May 23, 2014 at 2:41 pm

    It was right to visit your blog as well. That story was awesome. I felt straight to the heart the feelings that you want the readers to feel. I’ll definitely check your other stories too. 🙂 ♥

    • Jeyna Grace

      May 23, 2014 at 4:27 pm

      Haha! Thank you 😀 I’m happy it spoke to you! Oh, please do. I’m looking forward to more of your comments 🙂

  7. cheekymischief

    May 24, 2014 at 1:26 am

    Soooo glad I came to check on your blog, I’ve read this story 10 times already it’s crazy that you find this gems online that relate so much with your own life. Keep the stories coming you are a very talented writer, hope it rubs off 😀 Oh! And, thank you for commenting on my blog *hugs*

    • Jeyna Grace

      May 24, 2014 at 10:14 am

      I’m glad you checked out my blog too 😀 Thank you for reading it… 10 times!
      Thank you, I do hope it rubs off too 🙂

  8. shoobie11

    May 24, 2014 at 1:49 am

    I really enjoyed this, and I found this part – “Since the day I said ‘yes’ to the other side, I cut off all ties to the life I had. My friends were no longer my friends, my family was no longer my family, and the organization I worked for was now the one I betrayed.” – VERY relateable. Thanks for sharing =)

    • Jeyna Grace

      May 24, 2014 at 10:16 am

      Glad you did! I’m happy you found it relatable, it means my story has achieved its goal 🙂 Thank you so much for reading!

  9. finesharpie

    May 24, 2014 at 8:07 am

    I enjoyed it. Great action and I love the anime style art on your Battle for Oz too.

    • Jeyna Grace

      May 24, 2014 at 10:12 am

      Thank you! I’m personally not a fan of anime, but it’s hard not to love what Zaquard did 🙂

  10. torioto

    May 24, 2014 at 12:38 pm

    Great read. Definitely subscribing.

  11. famousmangoes

    May 25, 2014 at 3:09 am

    OMG!! So glad I opened this email tonight. Story is fascinating. I love your twist with the mirror! I also love how you talk about what the story means in the end and I am so with you on that!!You are a great storyteller, Jeyna Grace. Lots of love,Douglas R

    • Jeyna Grace

      May 25, 2014 at 5:36 pm

      Haha! I’m glad you did too 🙂 Thank you, and thank you!

  12. Brianna

    May 26, 2014 at 12:53 pm

    Wow. I honestly wasn’t expecting that twist. lol Which is unusual for me as I can usually pick up on these things right from the beginning.

    Thanks for the surprise! 🙂


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