Dark Skies

17 Oct


The rain fell like the bursting of a dam. There was no rhythm to the heavy drops, but there was thunder to the unsynchronized falling of rain. The windows in my room vibrated softly as the strong wind pushed against them. And that made me wince.

I never liked heavy rains. They scared me. The clouds always stayed dark after a heavy downfall, and unlike a drizzle in the afternoon, the sun never came up immediately.

There is just this feeling of uncertainty and worry when it came to heavy rains. You have to be homebound and if you are on the road, you can barely see. If you are walking with an umbrella, you know you are in a battle to stay dry as the wind sends your only protection scrunching.

Nobody would dance in such a rain. No one would leave the windows open for the wind. Not a single person would leave their house, and plans were better off cancelled.

I say all these as I have experienced them. But unfortunately, this heavy rain might be my last. It fitted the feelings I have right now; the cold, foreboding, and unstable situation that rested on my shoulders. Not once have I related so well to the weather than right now.

The dark sky, almost like the night sky, was the epitome of fear. Don’t believe me? Lie on your bed, look out your window, and don’t fall asleep. Watch the trees fight the wind, hear the wind chimes clash in loud cries, and feel the cold seeping into your skin. Are you afraid now?

I’m sure we all have experienced fear before. Fear alike the heavy rain, but much more real. These experiences are never easy to forget.

I, myself, remember my first encounter with fear. I was seven. I was at the swimming pool and my float was too big for me. Slipping through the hole and sinking, while my ears muffled the world around me, was a strange and scary feeling. I remember the cold water, the crushing in my chest, and my desperate fight to survive. I remember not dying, but fear still won. I never swam again.

Another encounter I had with fear was my final exam in university. I studied all I could but when the paper sat right in front of me, my mind went blank. The cold examination room, the loud ticking of the clock, and the words my mind could not wrap around, made me scared. I did not fail, but fear still won. I’m constantly struggling to believe in myself and I don’t know why.

Thinking back, my university encounter was not even up to par with my most recent one. A couple of years ago, I lost my job and I struggled to find a new one. Everyone shut their doors and there was not even a window to peep through. The sight of my bills terrified me, the sound of rejection resonated within me, and the nights where the chills of reality greeted me, made me want to run and hide under my bed. I was like a child, afraid of the bogeyman that was out to get me. Thankfully I did not go bankrupt, but fear still won. I have never been more worried about my future since then.

Honestly, after I got through that mess, I thought I had seen all the faces of fear. Of course I was wrong. I was wrong not because I’ve not experienced them all, but because I don’t know the fear I was about to face.

When it came, it hit me so hard that my hands shook, my insides bubbled, and my head started to spin. Was I afraid of death or was I afraid of uncertainty? What was my fear? I never had the answers.

Today, I laid in my bed staring at the rain. Chills ran down my spine as the beeping of the monitor grew louder and louder. I was hoping for the rain to stop, and for the dark sky to clear up, but it looked like it would not do so anytime soon. I was hoping for a glimpse of a rainbow, or a hint of hope, but the world was refusing to calm my soul.

I was not ready for what I had to face. I was scared, fearful, terrified, and paralyzed. Where was my courage? I wondered silently.

Briefly pulling my eyes away from the madness outside, I turned to stare at the ceiling. I found my eyes fixated on the ceiling light; the light that was so… stable. There was no flicker when the clouds thundered, and it kept my darkened room lit.

It was then that I realized something. There was a way to beat fear… and that, was hope. You don’t need a sign to have hope, you just need to believe there is hope. Even in the darkest places, there would be light. The strong stable glare of warmth is not shaken by the cold winds and tremors.

Hope was a powerful weapon, one that could defeat the daggers of fear. And for once in my life, I actually tried to let hope breathe. I did not have much of a choice anyway, as my future was uncertain. But with a little hope, I know I stand a chance, however small it was.

It’s true, they say, fear cripples. I have been crippled in different areas of my life unable to truly live it. And now, I’m about to go through an operation where my chance of survival is the same as my chance of death. But even so, I have decided not to let fear rob my last conscious thought.

When my doctor finally came in to see me, I took one last look at the world outside my window. This time, I was full of hope to see the clear blue skies again.


This short story is self explanatory and the question it raises is simple. Are you living in fear? Was there an event or a situation that has crippled you? If so, it’s time to let a little hope breathe.

No matter what you are afraid of, rejection, disappointment, loss, hardships, and even death, remember that hope is always there. You just have to see it and acknowledge its presence. Finding the light in darkness is not easy, but that doesn’t mean there isn’t any. Sometimes it takes faith, other times it takes courage, but believing there is hope changes the way you look at things. When you see things in a different light, it’s no longer the end of the world.

I know this story is pretty simple, without strange analogies like my previous ones, but I hope it conveyed the message well enough. So, do let me know what you think of it in the comments below!

© 2013 Jeyna Grace

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Posted by on October 17, 2013 in Original Works


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15 responses to “Dark Skies

  1. aspenlinmer

    October 18, 2013 at 12:21 am

    I really enjoyed reading your story. Fear is such a huge topic and one that is not always easy to discuss. However, stories like yours can really open the doors on the discussion.

    Your story reminds me of what I call “horcrux fear” (a Harry Potter analogy). I would love to hear your thoughts on it if you have time…(…no pressure though.

    I really like your line…”Hope was a powerful weapon, one that could defeat the daggers of fear.” This is so true for both kinds of fear that I see in our world. When we can provide hope or see hope in terrifying situations things begin to change. 🙂

    Thanks for writing. I really liked your story.


    • Jeyna Grace

      October 18, 2013 at 9:16 am

      Thank you! I’m really glad you liked it 🙂

      I’ll definitely check your post out. Thanks for the comment!

      • aspenlinmer

        October 18, 2013 at 12:52 pm

        Thank you! I enjoy your blog and look forward to reading more. 🙂


  2. Akira Okihu

    October 18, 2013 at 1:33 am

    Have you ever thought of entering NaNoWriMo?

    • Jeyna Grace

      October 18, 2013 at 9:10 am

      I have but I’m always planning for another project or writing one during that time, so it sort of clashes.

  3. Estrella Azul

    October 18, 2013 at 2:55 am

    Your story did convey the message well enough!
    Great writing, I really like this short story (or flash fiction, as it’s under 1000 words) 🙂

  4. gillife

    October 18, 2013 at 4:59 am

    I really enjoyed reading that! 🙂

  5. abbles

    October 20, 2013 at 6:36 am

    Potter reference in the 4th-to-last paragraph 🙂

  6. fatimasque

    October 21, 2013 at 9:56 pm

    your opening was absolutely beautiful, the piece as a whole was absolutely relatable, and i love that you did that. really made putting across your message very effective. i loved reading it. cheers

    • Jeyna Grace

      October 21, 2013 at 10:22 pm

      Thank you! I’m happy it worked pretty well 🙂 Honestly, I was a little skeptical with this one.

  7. Benjamin Nguyen

    October 29, 2013 at 9:00 am

    Love your fan-fic. I’ve been working on a blog like this of my own, but I have yet to write the first chapter. Great to come across a blog I can learn from.

    • Jeyna Grace

      October 29, 2013 at 9:04 am

      Haha, thanks! Were you referring to FHB? I do hope my blog is helpful 🙂


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