What If… I Nailed That Audition

01 Aug

what if

Around the age of 7 or 8, I did my first TV advertisement. It is nothing to really boast about as it was just me sitting on a merry-go-round and waving happily at the camera. But even though it was no big deal, it flipped a happy switch in my brain and I really wanted to do it again.

So, after that advertisement I went for another audition. This was a children’s milk ad that required me to do a little more acting. I remember being extremely nervous, but I gave it my best and soon forgotten I even auditioned. I was just a fickle minded kid after all.

A few days later, my mother told me I got the part. I was so excited as I have always wanted to be an actress, and now my dream was sort of coming true! When I got the simple script, I ran lines with my baby brother and practiced in front of the mirror. All of that excessive preparation eventually paid off when the day of the shoot arrived.

It was such an easy role, yet I felt like I had accomplished something big. And honestly, I did. Ever since that little role, I have gone for countless auditions and secured a role in most of them. I went from food advertisements to public service announcements and eventually TV dramas.

I was a child actor, playing small roles yet having tons of fun. But the fun soon became work when the film industry started picking up in my country. I began acting in a couple of films in my teenage years, and after a while I decided to move to the greener film industry in Singapore.

Stopping high school altogether, I went to my neighbouring country for a couple of auditions. When I landed a role, I stayed with my aunt and did not return home till the film was a wrap. After my first film received high ratings in both my country and Singapore, I was called for radio and newspaper interviews. Yes, I was rather famous.

But my acting career did not stop there. When my name started floating around, I was called for different auditions for different TV dramas and films. I was so busy that I rarely went home and I only saw my family once a month. Of course, I talked to them over the phone but I ended up spending more time with my extended family than my immediate family. It’s strange, I know.

After a few years in Singapore, I began contemplating of leaving. And, it didn’t take me long before I decided to go a little further. With the money I had, I travelled to different countries with the arrangement of my manager. She got me auditions in Hong Kong, China, Korea, and Japan. I picked up new languages, and surprisingly made it on screen for a few commercials and TV dramas. But soon, I got bored with the Asia scene and I told my manager to get me to Hollywood.

It was not as hard as I had expected it would be, and I did pretty well in the western world. I made a lot of ‘friends’ and contacts, but I didn’t really have anyone to connect with. I was also away from home so much that when I return for visits, my brother was like a stranger to me. Gifts couldn’t buy his affection, and it was always awkward talking to my parents.

Being I never attended high school and I was out of church when I left Malaysia, I lost contact with my childhood friends. I don’t even know where they are right now or what they are doing. Thinking about this now, I honestly really don’t know how to feel.

If I was a fan, following my career since it started, I would be so envious. I have everything; a house, a car, and money to see the world! Yet me being me, I would rather be back home with real friends and family.

I also recently realized that I enjoy writing, but work has made it impossible for me to do so. Where do I find the time to write when all I do is act? Sure, red carpets, interviews, and all the attention I once wanted was flooding in, but am I really happy?

Sometimes, I feel so tired and have an urge to escape. But somehow it never seems possible. It’s like I’m trapped without enough will power to find a way out. It has finally come to this; I don’t know if I want to be here or not.

Maybe, if I failed my audition for the milk advertisement, things would have been different. I would have probably gone to high school and university, and I would have written more. I would also have real friends and an ordinary job, but I would probably be happier.

But that is all just what if, and sadly, I will never really know.


Whether it is passing the bar exam or going to art school, each of us could have done something different and we often wonder what if we did. For me, it was that audition.

After writing this story, I personally felt that where I am today is much better than where I could have been. By writing this little ‘make belief’ story, I find myself thankful that I did not nail that audition. But, that is just me.

Do you have a pivotal moment in your life where you always look back and think ‘what if?’. Write it down and come up with a crazy story. You will either find yourself happy with life or more driven to achieve that dream life. Either way, it’s a good evaluation 🙂

© 2013 Jeyna Grace

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Posted by on August 1, 2013 in Original Works


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38 responses to “What If… I Nailed That Audition

  1. abbles

    August 1, 2013 at 11:07 pm

    Love it!! That was so cool 🙂

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 1, 2013 at 11:12 pm

      Haha, thanks! I never thought it would end like that, honestly. I was hoping for great things in the end. LOL

      • abbles

        August 3, 2013 at 4:12 am


  2. boredlandia

    August 1, 2013 at 11:28 pm

    This was incredible, I loved it. Often times we find ourselves in what we thought we’d be happy in just to realize that the dream was nice for the moment but it was fleeding because we were meant to do something bigger eventually.

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 2, 2013 at 8:35 am

      Thank you! Yes, I have to agree. That is so true! I’m glad that I wrote this, because if I did not I would still be living in the past 🙂

    • canary46

      August 3, 2013 at 6:07 am

      I know, it was brilliant and beautifully well writen

  3. Jav

    August 2, 2013 at 12:19 pm

    Was that just a story?

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 2, 2013 at 12:28 pm

      It’s a ‘What If’ story… an imagination of how my life would have turned out if I nailed that audition 🙂

      What If is just a fun project I’m doing, you can join too 🙂 Check out the page!

      • Jav

        August 2, 2013 at 12:33 pm

        Wow that was good! I will keep track of your What If posts 😀

  4. canary46

    August 3, 2013 at 6:09 am

    Wow, so you are kind of, well very glad you didn’t make the audition? way to be optimistic 🙂

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 3, 2013 at 11:06 am

      Before writing this, I wished I made it. But while writing I realized how much my life could have been different, and how much I would not like it. You should try it out, your perspective could change 🙂

  5. crimineaux

    August 6, 2013 at 12:04 am

    Actually forgot it was just ‘What if…’ while I was reading this!

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 6, 2013 at 8:42 am

      Haha, it felt real when I was writing it too 🙂

  6. raoshriya

    August 6, 2013 at 11:00 am

    Wow! I was about to say that at least you are writing if nothing else and then it hit me that this isn’t real! xD

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 6, 2013 at 11:06 am

      Haha! If it was, I don’t think I would be writing at all 🙂

  7. Sharmishtha

    August 9, 2013 at 4:08 pm

    You have talent, dedication and you have made your own place in this world, don’t look down upon it, if you reach out you will make friends right where you are!

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 9, 2013 at 4:22 pm

      Thank you so much! I’m so glad you think so 🙂

  8. havehopeamy

    August 12, 2013 at 9:26 pm

    I love acting so so so much but I only ever do it at school and there are no big audition placements anywhere near where I live, this was a wonderful ‘What If’ but be thankful of auditioning at all because it (like any audition) is a fantastic learning curve no matter your age 🙂

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 12, 2013 at 10:49 pm

      Ah, true 🙂 I’m not very good at acting, but I’m glad I was exposed to it as a child.

      • havehopeamy

        August 13, 2013 at 12:09 am

        I’m sure you’re good, yeah the experience is good 😛

  9. ikristineee

    September 18, 2013 at 4:07 pm

    Wow… I really feel this story. It makes me think about the choices I’ve made in life the past 5 years… could make a good story haha.

    • Jeyna Grace

      September 18, 2013 at 4:14 pm

      Thanks! Write yours, I would love to read it!

      • ikristineee

        September 18, 2013 at 4:18 pm

        I’m afraid it might not be interesting enough but thank you for the inspiration 🙂 i feel i have a foundation now. I’ve been sitting in front of my screen all evening trying to find inspiration but i ended up with nothing.. I’ll try my best!

        • Jeyna Grace

          September 18, 2013 at 4:20 pm

          You never know where the story could go 🙂 No prob, glad I could help in one way or another.

  10. Callie Smith

    April 22, 2014 at 8:19 pm

    Wow…great story. Thanks for sharing!

  11. Aimee:)

    July 7, 2014 at 5:09 am

    This is an amazing story! I definately will create a short ‘what if…’ Story

    • Jeyna Grace

      July 7, 2014 at 9:10 am

      Thank you! Do so, I would love to read it 🙂

  12. D.L.

    February 6, 2015 at 2:54 pm

    Nice~ a ‘what if’ of a normal life from a super-successful person’s point of view. Grass is greener on the other side; even though if your side has a million dollars and a golden bottle of milk.

    • Jeyna Grace

      February 6, 2015 at 3:20 pm

      Yup, I agree 🙂 Thank you for reading!

  13. gwenphillip

    March 13, 2015 at 5:26 pm

    Like they say, “What do you gain, we you own the whole world but lose your soul ?” Basic human need for the company of loved ones wins over everything ! Good story 🙂

    P.s. Thanks for checking out my blog !

    • Jeyna Grace

      March 13, 2015 at 8:48 pm

      I couldn’t agree more. Thank you!

      P.S Thank YOU for visiting my blog too 😀

  14. Brian

    July 15, 2015 at 11:44 pm

    I finally made the time to check out your blog after your encouraging reply on the very first day I set up my blog. I couldn’t have selected a better first story to read. You just inspired my next blog post. I hope you don’t mind if I reference your blog and this post in my post. Thanks again for your reply. I can’t wait to read more of your stories.

    • Jeyna Grace

      July 16, 2015 at 9:16 am

      Thank you, I’m really glad I did 🙂 Sure, by all means. Thank you so much for reading!

  15. anjugopinath

    June 14, 2016 at 8:47 pm

    a nice story about the human urge to delve into what was not to be 🙂


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