Not Even The Cold

04 Aug

It has been 3 days since they took his father. And in those 3 days his mother had never left her bedroom.

Draco had to make sure she ate during meal times and slept when she needed to. He was constantly making sure all her needs were met. And all done without a single complaint.

Draco Malfoy, a mommy’s boy? Partly true. But the reason why he was trying his best to look after his mother was because she was the only family he had left.

Was it so hard for him to have a normal family? Draco constantly thought.

That morning, he sat on his bed staring at himself in the mirror. He looked ordinary. He could easily pass off as a muggle. And as shameful as it is to admit it, it seemed like a very good idea.

Growing tired at staring at his sleep deprived eyes, he decided to check on his mother. As he entered her room, there she sat again, by the window. For the past 3 days, Narcissa Malfoy would sit and stare out the window. She wouldn’t talk if given a choice, nor would she leave.

Draco could feel her pain, her lost, her fears. Her emotions filled the room, and Draco wished he could do something about it.

Upon hearing him enter, Narcissa turned around and forced a smile.

“Mother, have you eaten?” Draco asked, worried he would lose her too.

“Would you make me a sandwich?” Narcissa asked softly.

Draco nodded and did as he was told. He headed to the kitchen and attempted at making a sandwich, which was the least he could do for his mother.

Bread. Ham. Cheese. Lettuce. What else? Draco thought to himself as he placed one on top of the other. When he finally took a step back from the sandwich, he felt disappointed. If he wouldn’t eat that thing himself, how could his mother?

Draco swept the kitchen table clean, sending the sandwich and everything else on it onto the floor.

“Elkin, clean this up!” Draco shouted at a house elf who hurried to the task given. “And make mother a sandwich,” Draco ordered.

Of all the concocted emotions that was driving him nuts, the very one that affected him that day was disappointment. Couldn’t he do anything himself? Is making a sandwich so hard? Draco felt like a disappointment.

And now that the Dark Lord had chosen him for a task, he was so afraid he would be a disappointment. Not to the Dark Lord, but to his family. Their lives were at stake. If he should fail, he might as well disown himself.

Deep in his own thoughts, Draco noticed the house elf slowly walking up to him. And as he took the plate of sandwich from it, he gave the house elf a kick, “Back to work.”

Still emotionally distraught, Draco headed to his mother’s room and placed the plate on her lap.

“Thank you dear,” Narcissa smiled as she kissed Draco on his hand.

“Do you need anything else?” Draco asked immediately.

Narcissa shook her head and Draco left her to her sandwich. He didn’t have anywhere else to go but his room, so he retreated under the messy comforter on his bed.

Though under his comforter he felt protected from the chill in his room, deep inside, ice was building. Ice was building on everything he hold dear to him, his hopes, his dreams, his future. All growing cold. All fading away with every step he took.

To think that he could actually have a normal family made Draco hate his father. How could his father drag them all into this mess? He never wanted it, and he was sure neither did his mother. Now that his father was in Azkaban, he had to fix it all.

Alone in his room, Draco held on to his tears no longer. The pain, the hurt, the fear and everything that made his mother upset, everything that tore his family apart, was finally surfacing.

He was 16. Merely 16. He didn’t deserve to go through all these.

When Draco heard his door open, he quickly wiped the tears off his cheek and sat up. He was ready to yell at the house elf for intruding his privacy. But at the door was not a house elf… it was his mother.

“How are you feeling?” Narcissa asked as she walked towards him and sat on his bed.

“Fine,” Draco answered, surprised that his mother left her room.

“You don’t look fine,” Narcissa said as she wiped a tear off his cheek.

“Mother…” Draco trailed off. He didn’t know what to say.

“I know. I know you are angry and upset. I know you’re scared,” Narcissa said as she held on to her son’s hand.

“I, I don’t think I can do it,” Draco said, holding back his tears.

“You don’t have to, if you can’t.” Narcissa never wanted this for her son, and she could feel his fear.

“But if I dont-” Draco choked on his words.

“Let me take care of this. Don’t worry about it.” Narcissa closed in and gave her son a hug.

And as though the flood gates broke open, Draco broke down. Tears fell and he couldn’t stop, even if he forced himself to.

“Hush now, everything is going to be alright.” Narcissa held on to her son tighter. He had been taking care of her for the past few days, and it was her turn now. She was his mother, and she was going to protect him.

This time, Draco felt protected. Knowing his mother will have his back, he felt secured. They may not have his father, but they had each other. And nothing was going to break them apart. Not the fear, not the anger, not the pain, not even the cold.


Posted by on August 4, 2011 in Fan Fiction (Shorts)


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31 responses to “Not Even The Cold

  1. brionyjae

    August 4, 2011 at 5:30 pm

    Awwww, so saaaaad! 😛 I like the way you’ve portrayed his relationship with Narcissa though – obviously she cares about him, I mean, she lies about Harry’s death just to get closer to Hogwarts to find him 🙂 Great work!

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 4, 2011 at 5:34 pm

      Thanks for reading and commenting! Hoping the other non-draco fans would like this too 🙂

  2. Elaine

    August 4, 2011 at 6:55 pm

    Ohohoh, I’m a Draco lover right here! Very lovely piece of writing there, I’ve always deeply wondered at how Draco would interact with family members (namely his mother), and this rings right. And you hit it spot on when he demanded the House Elf to clean, haha, very Draco. Thumbs up!

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 4, 2011 at 7:07 pm

      Haha, thanks! im glad you liked it 🙂

  3. An Idealist Thinker

    August 4, 2011 at 7:07 pm

    Hi Jeyna, i read one of your stories in full, as promised 🙂

    I didn’t like Draco much while reading the books but the movies made me look at him differently, especially the last ones. Enjoyed reading through your post (btw, there are a few typos in this one that you might want to correct).

    Have i been missing out since i have not read them in continuation?
    Anyway, I have subscribed to your blog now.. so, no worries.

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 4, 2011 at 7:09 pm

      Thanks! Typos? Could you point it out so i can fix it?
      And thanks for subscribing!

  4. live60

    August 4, 2011 at 11:54 pm

    I noticed the typos too, Jeyna. However, the writing is good. While I don’t write fantasy, my life is one where I have one foot in reality, and the other in fantasy, my own of course. But like Draco and Harry Potter, I do believe in my powers.


    • Jeyna Grace

      August 4, 2011 at 11:58 pm

      Pls help point out the typos, cause i dont see them. LOL. Kinda hard to proofread your own work, and i’ve read it like ten times already.

  5. live60

    August 5, 2011 at 1:46 am

    Tell me about proof reading. LOL I’ve edited a novel between 20 and 30 times, and still haven’t published it because by now I don’t know if I really like it or not. Maybe I’m suffering from overdose. But, we writers all seem to naturally skim over our own mistakes. I tried using other writers to proofread, and they didn’t do any better. However, I’m much better than I once was. I recently edited Dirk Schulze-Makuch’s scifi novel, “Voids of Eternity: Alien Encounter,” due to having an eye for mistakes. But, many of my published works do have mistakes. We evolve and say, “Oh well.”


    • Jeyna Grace

      August 5, 2011 at 7:20 am

      when it comes to books, best you get a proofreader. if one doesnt do it properly, get 10! haha. My book has gone through 2 proofreaders and there are still things they overlooked, maybe cause they were doing it as a favor to me. Now its going through a thorough proofread. Pretty sure all mistakes will be fix after this one.

      • noonanjohnc

        August 7, 2011 at 8:04 pm

        Proofreading can be a troublesome thing and it’s my full-time profession!

        Anyway, sorry, that’s just me butting in.

        Great story.

        • Jeyna Grace

          August 7, 2011 at 11:28 pm

          Haha, no problem. Thanks for the comment!

  6. thecagelessbird

    August 9, 2011 at 6:31 am

    i must say! this is fantastic! haha, i’m glad i was curious enough to check you out 🙂
    I never wondered about how draco interacted with his family, but this brought out a pretty good theory, nice job! 🙂

    • Jeyna Grace

      August 9, 2011 at 9:40 am

      Thank you! I’m glad too that you check my blog out. Really appreciate your comment 🙂

  7. momfog

    September 4, 2011 at 10:29 am

    I always thought Draco could have an interesting back story. Nicely done.

  8. Medha

    September 28, 2011 at 5:35 pm

    I’ve always been fascinated by Draco’s character and the fact that despite seeming so similar to Voldemort, Draco is more like Harry. There is this emotional, human side to him that I wish if not Rowling, then at least other fan-fic writers had explored. And you’ve done a beautiful job of it! 🙂
    I loved it! In fact, when I got the notification for this post in my mailbox, I thought I’d skip through it because I had a lot of work to finish. However, I ended up reading the whole thing with great concentration, it was written so well!

    • Jeyna Grace

      September 28, 2011 at 8:07 pm

      Thanks 🙂 I was hoping to give others a chance to feel how he feels. He’s seriously misjudged.

      • Medha

        September 28, 2011 at 10:10 pm

        Yeah, that he is!

  9. Ani Sharmin

    January 7, 2012 at 11:21 am

    This is so sweet and sad. There’s an odd (yet appropriate, given the character’s personality) difference between how much Draco cares about his mother and how he treats the house elf Elkin. I like how you show how much they both care about each other and are concerned for their family.

    (Also, I just noticed that, according to the side panel, you have 394 subscribers and that made me smile.)

    • Jeyna Grace

      January 7, 2012 at 12:03 pm

      Thanks 🙂 Yes, I do. It’s making me smile too!

  10. maddieroberts

    July 2, 2012 at 10:56 am

    Mr Malfoy is a coward. You showed this in a sweet way and portrayed his feeleings well.

  11. donnaray

    November 21, 2012 at 4:38 am

    You summed up the character of the real boy behind Draco in this short piece..his insecurities, his love for his family, his uncaring attitude towards the elf (it was so Malfoy!)…he is a much misunderstood character…Draco was not a coward, he faced a challenge as big as trying to kill Dumbledore just to save his family..n he did his best under the circumstances he had..and the person who knows he is afraid and can’t do the thing but still goes on with it, is the bravest person…yes, he had numerous fallacies, but he was still a child who had been brought up in the tradition of hating muggles and the poorer people n admiring Voldemort..anyway, I loved the 6th book for giving an entirely new depth to the otherwise shallow character of Malfoy…thanks for describing the dimension to his character only hinted at by Rowling..Also loved to see Narcissa’s back story before the scene with Snape…:):)

  12. haylzie

    April 18, 2013 at 5:29 am

    I like how you portrayed another side of Draco! It’s so easy to forget that the bad or mean guys have a soft spot,too! I’ve never been a complete hater of Draco although sometimes I just wanted to have a Hermoine moment and punch him in the face! 🙂

    • Jeyna Grace

      April 18, 2013 at 8:27 am

      Thanks! Yes, I like to think the mean guys still have some good in them 🙂 Draco is actually one of my fav characters 🙂

  13. Vlackerine

    July 8, 2013 at 6:25 pm

    I finished reading all the books first before giving this page another visit, well, in case I don’t know some characters and stuffs. ^_^
    And here we go, another very nice thing in here! I love how you described Draco. Such a cry baby that little guy is. Isn’t he sweet? Mother-loving son. I really like it! ^_^

    • Jeyna Grace

      July 8, 2013 at 8:26 pm

      I always thought him of a mommy’s boy. Its a sweet thought 🙂 Thanks for reading!

  14. Shankari Priya

    November 11, 2013 at 8:03 pm

    All he does, he does it to keep up the name of Malfoy. I’m sure he never did anything for any other reason. All his life, he had to keep up to Lucius. I feel sad for him.

    • Jeyna Grace

      November 11, 2013 at 8:11 pm

      I agree. The Malfoys are very family oriented and all they are doing is for the survival of their family.


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